Dark Night

• Aha moments
• Movies
• Friends
• Falling down and up being the only way to look
• Selfless love

These sustain me, when I lose sight of what matters. They bring my gaze into focus and make it easier to see the next step. Those work, “in the moment”. When I am at a place where I can look back into and process those dark times, I see something that equally disturbs and excites me. God was there.

How the hell can there be a God when so much crap happens?

I don’t know. I don’t know why bad things happen. I don’t know why God allows the night to settle in. I do know that I have too many friends who live in fear that God might punish them for imperfection. I do know that it is easy to believe that ‘good things happen to good people.’ I do know it is very easy to believe the converse. I am completely unwilling to impose my experience on others. But, for some strange reason, I receive an immeasurable amount of peace by knowing God is there–good or bad, sickness or health.

Journey deeper into the Dark Night.*

*Intense, but worth finishing.